I feel so useless like I'm not worth anything. I feel like I could have done so much better if I tried harder. I feel like I'm such a failure, sad to have a child like me huh. I feel like life is just leading me no where and I don't see myself even in the next 10 years. Let's just hope the world really ends this year so I can start a new life and try again.

Shedding all the tears to ahieve this dream, is it really worth it?

So I'm back in KK and I should be ecstatic but I'm not. I thought I would be. My mood changes all the time similar to a mood swing. Where should i start? Uni?
Well uni. The words are kinda scary to me. BEWARE: THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST!
Well I did not get accepted to engineering at uq which was a disappointment coz I thought if I got it then everything will be solved and I won't have second thoughts on it. But no I got QS instead. And then now I think I want to study optometry so badly. I'm very sure if I study media or something I would be good at it. But being Canto I want face. so yea I'm so self-conscious and scared of what people would think of me it is ridiculous I know but I can't change my mind that easily can I? Why can't there be just a course to be a singer.
I wanna earn money yes I admit I like fame in a good way not coz I'm proud but I am the type of person that needs compliments then I will improve. If you don't compliment me then I'll think I suck and won't bother at improving myself. I know this sounds very bad but trust me I'm not an obnoxious person and definitely not hidung tinggi. Just you knw everyone works differently.

This is it guys. Graduation Day. 18th October 2011. I'm graduating high school.
It's been a long journey like a roller coaster ride but it was made easy with the help of family and friends :)

On a brighter note (not sure if it is brighter), I woke up at 6am today, yes 6am! I came downstairs and found my dad helping my mom dye her hair haha. last minute style! they are so cute :3
I have a mask on :/ probably should have kept that to myself huh aha.
I feel like I'm getting all ready for formal again.
ANYWAYS dad's gone out to send mum to bus stop and after that will probably have bfast with grandma. yup she's here too :)

ok bye.

I never thought this day would ever come seriously. It feels so unreal. I remember last day of primary school still! The first day of high school, where I sat, what poses I made for photos. Wow. I also remember the last day of school before moving to Brisbane, I remember the day I started high school in a totally new environment. Now that, was memorable. I remember telling my friends we've still got time to chill and enjoy high school life. I remember first day of senior year, I thought it would be a long year. But today has finally come, and it is my last day of high school. I really cannot believe it.
 ok bye.

So I just finished my performance for vocal soiree which is my last time ever, and I am so so so disappointed in myself.
I was just so nervous, it's not like me. I'm never nervous, even though I am I would calm down the moment I start singing, but this time my heart was just like going as fast as it could. I went outta tune not once but 3 effin times!! THREE!!!! I know this song so well and I sing it well too. Why oh why. So embarrassing. So not my standard.
Is this God's sign of asking me to quit fantasizing about being a singer? Well, if it is, it is working.
Coz now I'm not going to audition for graduation anymore.
I couldn't even pull of this song in front of what? 40 people? 50 max?
Talk about singing in front of the whole graduating class, plus their parents, plus the faculty plus the other students. More than 2000 I'm estimating?
My confidence just plunged to level zero....

Just love her and everything she does.


I like you, put your number, put your number in my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah~

So I talked to him on fb while he was at work. We talked for quite a long while.
Was gonna continue after I finish my shower. Except.
I went on a dance party with my mom at home. I created a list of KPOP songs with catchy dance moves and just dance for an hour and a half! Yes that's from 7:30 to 9:30p.m. wow! haha totally digging dancing again. I realize my flexibility is going down the drain seriously. can't even lift my left lef in a attitude of 90 degress anymore :(

and I tried to do this action again:


barely got my leg up to my head and didn't have any more strength asjdfhweur! CRIES
I wanna go back to Mrs. Lu and hear her yell even when waiting at the reception area. I miss ballet class.
I wanna go back to SDT and discover myself, push my limits and being the boss! nah jokes. I'm not that kind of person.
I wanna go back to 6th floor of CCA building (although I dread climbing up those stairs!) and grand jete from one corner of the studio to the other.
Ah memories...

Anyways.
I signed in to msn. and I still remembered when he said that he thought I was dead coz I signed in late that day. awww..
So I signed in right and he didn't say hi, so I went offline and signed in again ( I know, shut up!) and he said hello. hehhehe
I seriously hope he doesn't know this blog exists :O and if you are reading this, please just act like this is some random shit. lol thank you

ok bye.

Going to film my dance now.
I'm so nervous...I hope I can still keep my stupid low A -.-
I should get a higher mark than that low A.

so I've been talking to him..to tell u the truth, I've been waiting the whole night for him to talk to me.
Was telling ling about him and my dream which included black flying monkeys
but then he said he was gonna talk but instead went to play games instead -.-
but then he said he'll go on ebuddy which made me felt all giddy
then he sorta just went off to play your games again lol thought u left by now
and oh he just IM me again asking me why I'm not asleep. I replied, no answer must be gaming
ah boys.. so ya. love-why so complicated.

talking to ling too. she's the one that I can talk about personal deep deep stuff with. coz we can relate to each other. we might get angry or pissed at each other sometimes and it takes time to recover but ya it will be all good. I know most of her secrets and she knows most of mine. Except one, which only I will know forever..

ok bye.

talk to me. coz I think I enjoyed talking to you. Remember those times when the moment I logged on you'll just say hi I was bored. ya right you were bored. I mean for like 10 times seriously? aw u made me smile. and once I didn't till like late and u thought I was dead. Hahaha. It's nice chatting with you. so what happened? age difference. ran outta topic? c'mon u're better than that! And I dreamt about you last night. It was kinda weird....hmm.but it was nice :)

omg what am I talking about?! Calm yourself Kimberley. It's just a friend.

So. Maths. I wonder why I like you..
haha. It was not as bad as I thought it would be.
English tomorrow & thank you so much to my beloved aunt for helping me so much with english.
Seriously couldn't have done it without you.
I'm off to memorizing. byebye

I am very blessed to have friends who care about me & like me for who I am.
However I realize that I tend to change who I am sometimes just to fit in.



Thanks Cami :)

ok bye.

To make things worse, Monkey Studios stole our moves and the STTSS went to their leader too!!! I boiled up so hot, but yet, so speechless and in grief..And now, whenever i recall the occasion, i'll either punch the wall, gasp for air or shut my eyes really tight..haiz...

真的很生气自己!!!!!!!
不过, 拿到亚军也不错啦... 只是有点不甘愿monkey们拿而已... 说实在的, 我们的表演真的失水准了... 如果是'we like girls'是冠军的话, 还爽一下..
The past should be the past. Why do I still spend my energy to dig up old & hateful comments?

你真是一位有天分的艺人，毕竟是天生及重小就开始训练，
唱歌跳舞之类都不是难事，再接再厉吧。
大家都累了，真的累了，可这是值得的，
这是一个回忆，一个美好的回忆，
大家都希望能在聚在一起练习

As obviously you can tell.
I spent quite some time redecorating my blog. Reckoned it was getting black and gothic and just urgh! -shivers-
I think it reflects a lot more about my personality, with my dreams of being a singer (because I heart performing on stage) and wanting to leave a good impression on people.
So my blog title remains the same. Remember Kimberley T.


ok bye.

Ok I need to type this up real quick.

You yes you. Girl. You really think you are intelligent? Well guess what. YOU'RE NOT!!
OMG. I seriously can't stand you anymore. Maybe I should delete you from my facebook friends list so I don't have to see you being a pessimist and commenting on everything that is happy news to me. When I first met you, I thought you were alright. But this one incident left a bad impression on me. and again it was because of what came out of your mouth!

First of all, do you know that containers comes in different sizes? I bet you starve everyday and go home and pig out. It is very rude too considering the fact that I am older than you. Show some respect please. You study science too right? So I'm pretty sure you understand that you have to cut your meat into smaller pieces and chew many times before you swallow it? No you don't know? you will choke! What the heck have you been doing in science classes -.- What you think hen wei sui meh? you are at a growing age my dear -vomit- you should be taking in certain amount of calcium/protein whatever. Let's see who have stronger bones when we hit 55 shall we? I can't wait >: THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! strike 1

Another time, hello, you have a brain. F***ing use it! Ever thought that our class just was warm because the windows were never open and you were in a science lab?? omg how stupid can u get. THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! and I am 100% sure, I always feel colder than you. wanna compare? be my guest! strike 2

Finally today, you did it again! Not directly in my face but on facebook. where EVERYONE may have saw it and yes you embarrassed me. You can say that I am xiao qi but I didn't like it because who gave you the right to make that comment at me and furthermore THREE times? huh? 请你分清楚谁比较大。我们是华人，请尊敬你的长辈！It was a status update, you don't know me, don't simply make comments about people you don't know personally ok. You don't even know me all we do is ask each other where is everyone else during breaks because it is so awkward between you and me. strike 3 & my final tolerance with you


You are not my family member or someone I care about, why should I care about what you say then? Some may say that I'm over-reacting and being sensitive, well that's how I am I guess. Once I determine the character and personality of a person and I don't like you (not the whole kindy thing but the mature "not like you") you're dead, unless you proof me wrong. Which has happened before. I'm mature enough to determine a kind hearted or similar person, I don't like to mix with people who have a bad influence on me. That's it. that's why I don't talk much with people I don't know and I feel awkward. and that's why my circle of friends is so small.

Now I have to go to school tomorrow, pretending to smile at you as if I'm totally fine (sry I'm not Kang Ho Dong). There's still another 9 weeks of school. fml at this point

people. THINK BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING~ 
gosh it's not that hard.

ok bye.

Where has all my confidence gone to?

What exactly is a blog? A diary that one keep online?
I thought a diary was private and personal. However there's these people that "follows" you. What does that make blogging? Sometimes I just wish that I know someone reads my blog on a regular basis, so that I have a feeling as if I'm talking to someone and feel comforted. But I don't want you to read it as well because it's suppose to be personal. This is so confusing :/ Anyone out there? perhaps just gimme a nod? or something......
ok bye.

Labels: pregnant woman

I hate this feeling. It feels like I 欠人家人情. We fight because of this STUPID ISSUES! YES IT MIGHT BE A HUGE ONE. BUT IS IT WORTH IT???????????? TO MOVE HERE AND FIGHT OVER THIS KIND OF ISSUES WHEN BACK HOME WE HAD OUR OWN PLACE!!! CONTROL YOUR TEMPER WOULD YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!

ok bye.

Merry Christmas everybody!

I would totally just put the "ok bye" right here and here but I just read my cousin's blog and she updates almost everyday. At least she tries to and they are at least a page long! I need motivation man.

So ya Christmas Day. Got woken up very early again (well to me that is) and took MTR all the way to Hong Kong station and went around looking at xmas decorations with dad and mom. Then we went to Yong Kee and had xmas lunch with dad's friends. I got a Christmas present from the wife too haha notice how I said the wife. anyways...... Ya it was a beautiful mirror from England. Now that adds to my collection of souveniers from England which includes a "I went to London and didn't know what to buy for you so I got you this mug" from Chloe, a classic old English red telephone box magnet from my piano teacher and now this! Fascinating isn't it. We had scallop, prawn, abalone and the goose came last? beats the whole purpose of going to the restaurant actually. We were all so full already. Oh and did I mention that it was listed on the Michelin list back in 2009? Hmm.

Went round walking again. Causeway bay = P-A-C-K-E-D with people. I hate crowds well not really. It's fun once in a while. Had RuRu jie's favourite Tiny Pig Bun hehe. and went next door again for a family favourite. frozen yoghurt ice-cream. EVERYBODY SCREAM!! AHHHH. hehe. ya we had old house crumbs.

Came home at night and talked to Shannon, Clayton and lalayee yee for 1:15:34 hours to be exact ^^ Gosh I miss them so badly. The last time I saw them was a year ago? ya. I would be so excited when they went back to KK for the summer hols. Good times. And 2008 Christmas was the best! xoxo

P.S My xmas present was a new set of pink earphones. I needed them haha.

ok bye.

Apparently. That sentence does not appear in my dictionary. Because yes you do a lot of actions. But you don't say a thing! How am I suppose to know what does it mean?

Don't let me blinded by your actions again, coz I cannot take another plunge to hell. (especially when exams are soon, NOT THE POINT). So ya, say something! Or I'll just continuing ignore you and listen to the teacher babble at the front of the class. Thank you. Appreciated.

P.S School was somewhat exciting. Especially during that 1 minute.
ok bye.

Word of the year! D-O-I-N-K.
It's actually pronounced dwaioun~ hahahha! It's like a spring? Do you get it? Thought by my beloved cousin, Ms. Soo Yunn Ru. haha. It's awesome. pretty much. But it gets annoying to some people but it's pretty much addictive. Doink!

School has started for quite some time. 3 weeks into the last term. And 2 months of summer break then I'm gonna be in Year 12! Oh no. yes. Oh no! I'm graduating after that, from high school. Time passes really fast, too fast in my opinion. I still remember the first day of primary school. I cried and therefore, was not selected to become class monitor. Well, at least that's what my form teacher told me -shrugs-\

But I really don't wanna graduate yet. Perhaps one more year, then I'll be prepared.

It's not that I don't know what I want to study, it's because I want to be a singer. I'm serious. And this ambition in asian world it's mostly a big NONO. Yes my mom says "sure you can do that, after you graduate from university." DOINK!

[Last year's comp. Champion baby! Go J3 He 2010. From left to right: Michelle, Shroomie, Me & Ling]

I've been really addicted to kpop recently. 2PM is really good. You can tell that they were trained hard before they debuted. Singing live is not easy, especially when you need to dance as well. I know that coz when I sang Party Just Begun during teacher's day with camilla and natalie. BOY! -hits the gym-

Well. That's it. from my life. for now. I need to go study.

[I miss going for vocal lessons every week. Although I was always scared of going! haha. Ms Teo & Ms. Wong]

[Me & Boomie! She's holding my bottle. P.S. I lost it! Champion for choir & Best Conductor Award :)]

 ok bye.

It's a LG GT540. Couldn't choose white or pink. But decided to go with the white after 2 hours of thinking! hahas..met up with ling ling too. din get any pics at all darn it..Stick for more updates! btw this is the phone I got :)


P.S I'm in HK now

 ok bye.

1) I found out something I wish I did not find out although it may not be true.

2) I saw a picture I wish I did not see because it still breaks my heart.

3) I wish you could have kept your thoughts to yourself.

4) I wish I could just sit at Starbucks or some old kopi tiam with Evangeline for hours and just talk.

5) I wish Jacqueline Wong & Camilla Moi wasn't on the other side of the country. Don't care Jacqui. Still far.

6) I wish Shereen Wong & Katie Yap are right there beside me when I walk pass you.

7) I wish some dreams I have at night wouldn't be the opposite. I know they never happen.

8) I know that you don't give a shit, but I still have the slightest hope in my heart.

9) Life isn't that easy.

[Taken: 10th of October 2009]

 ok bye.

 ok bye.

Not that I went. Didn't feel like it since I was out the whole day today. I told my mom it is now 9:50 and I was suppose to be in bed by 10. Anyways.So second post. I figured the previous one was wayyy too long and I see you people drowning already. So ya. Woke up at 10 and watch Saturday Disney. GOD I love disney :3 Then wanted to go to Royal Brunei to get the credit card thingy sorted out or else I wouldn't be able to board the plane next Friday. But there was no parking space, you know, at the city. After that me and my mom went to Garden City to look for dresses! Yes. dresses! for my cousins wedding. There were lots of gorgeous dresses that suited me and stuff. But I reckon I'm dressing up too much for a wedding in KK. But my mom reckons that people in KK dresses up waaaaaay more compare to Brisbane :S I dunno. ISH. maybe I'll just wear back the same dress I wore for last year's teachers day performance which I got in 2008 from VANCOUVER i miss that place~Tried 8 dresses and got 1. which wasnt even a cocktail dress what so ever. It was a sun dress. pretty as. The shoe shop outside of the library was closing down so there was like mega sales!! This gladiator high heeled shoes were only 10 dollars! But I didn't get them. Was thinking of getting a pair of gladiator sandals for boom but dunno if she will like it a not. and shereen. I got her loads of stuff. At least, in my mind :P hahas.
then piano, then Aldi. here's a theory:" If you see thin people buying loads of chocolate from ALDI. Note: It means that they are going back to their hometown and are buying for family and friends :) hahas. good theory eh? after that we went to singapore malaysia for dinner. i know! I'm going in less than a week and i'm going to get rip off food? shame on you kim. Came home and was so tired and felt restless. That's why mom ended up going to riverfire by herself, just like how she did for buddhafest, which made me feel very guilty :S

[This pair of shoes cost 10dollars only! Was gonna buy it for boom but she doesn't like it..should ask shereen :)]

 ok bye.

Quick update. This week has been all about exams. Tuesday I had my Maths C KAP 2nd period and right after that Maths B KAP 3rd period -dies-. But it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, although I was really nervous at first. I have no idea why. I guess this is a normal reaction?? On Wednesday, I had Maths C MAP first period and Physics 3rd period. Did bother studying for erm 5mins in Chem but I thought watching Next Stop, Happiness with Karon was way more entertaining. If this was blocks I would be so dead. So ya I knew I was gonna get a D again just like term 1. Thursday was my last day of exams woohoo. Maths B MAP. There was this question on it that was about polar bears and it was pretty confusing coz the what what what what what of this equals the what what what what what of that which is the bla bla bla bal bla -breaths-. So now, people who takes Yr 11 maths B hates polar bears :)

Monday was FREAKIN AWESOME! Yes. you did not see it wrongly. And yes it involved someone. and no I can't give details here just in case people other then my enemies read this post :P I so made the right decision to go to the library after school that day. It was indeed a productive one. Which included studying as well of course. -thinks back about monday and smiles-. Yes it was that good. Actually it was Elaine who texted me and told me about xxx. She was like "come say hi to me if you walk by" hahas. and although I was like sitting directly above her we were texting frantically. STALKING yes. Another message read "DUDE! It's like we have spies on both floors~" hahas.
I went with Linh, the twins (Caroline & Catherine), Yanny and Emily. Knowing how Emily and Linh were there, I knew to act as if I didn't know them or wasn't attached to their group :) and yes the librarian came over. HAHA. 5mins right after Linh and Emily left, it all happened! OMG why did she have to leave so early, and thank god I needed gum desperately and thank god catherine got the floors wrong and was arguing away with caroline. Thank god that I decided to eavesdrop on their convo. Or else :(
Friday was bad and depressing. Screw you. yes you. it was all because of you. I let you get into my head. I promised myself that I wouldn't let it happened but it did. GOSH it started with Maths B. I had 0.5marks to get an A! Screw Rose :@ Then in physics, salama was giving back our tests and he said to me infront of the whole class with everyone watching "Erm, I suggest you try harder, coz if you don't work hard then you will.."HELLO!! What happened when I got  a B+ for my block exams?? From a D to a B? and u said nothing. and xxx got a C+ to a B and you were like "oh great improvement, I am very happy with ur results" wtf! If he continues to be like this to me. I'm gonna go see the HOD nah. FML~ I walked down the hall to english class, yes it's just 2 doors away =.= and sat down on a table. WHAM! I hit my head on the knob behind. metal knob of the metal box. UGH!!! HOW DARN DEPRESSING CAN IT GET ALREADY?! In maths C it was kinda fun coz we were playing loto but I just wish. You know~ sigh.

 ok bye.

Hi there. This week was a blast why?  Because I only had to go to school for 3 days. Although they should have have make Friday a holiday as well (no complaints here) so we would've gotten five days of holiday! Five awesome days. Just like how everyone wishes to go to school in the weekend and have the weekdays off -drooling-. ANYWAYS. back to the main topic. Wednesday was a public holiday for EKKA & Thursday we had a Student Free Day.
This was my first year going to the EKKA so I was pretty excited. I went on Thursday coz I did the math and figured that Wednesday there'd be heaps of people (which I was obviously right -don't sweat it Kimberley-)

cbf continuing. so i'll just post it like that.

 ok bye.

Two post in one day. Awesome much? So school was pretty awesome today. It started with English which was a BOO for me. The plan is due tomorrow or Monday. I choose the second option. I don't think I need to explain why. Coz in this case, isn't it pretty obvious? I spent the time reading newspapers and eating marshmallow off Karon. I realize since I've came to Australia, the only newspaper I've read are the free chinese ones available at Sunnybank. LOL. Towards morning tea I got really really hungry so I started to eat my rice crackers (yes it's flavourless). I saw this paper article about Julia Gillard. It was a comic which had Tony Abott in a boxing gear looking very thin and Kevin Rudd's head hang up on the wall. Each sorta creepy but it's pretty hilarious!

In PCL, we were doing this test where we select our personalities and such and the results will show what field we should go into in university.You know me. All my interests are all performing arts, public speaking, broadcasting, entertainment and stuff. So naturally the field I should be in is involving that. But in Asian world, it's a big NO NO. So sadly, that's the only reason and I can guarantee the only reason that I do not know what I want to study in uni. I'm like Camilla. Seriously my life is very similar to her. 拉上补下. It's a big NO NO.


Before last period, was the best time of my life! Thanks to chemistry EEI, I had to go to the locker to get my milo kok..HAHA! And which led me to....................................................
You will not believe the food people brought for the experiment! Potato chips, MARSHMALLOWS!, bread biscuits -yawn-. One sentence that made me smile by Mr. Raven:" If I catch you eating other people's practical, I will mark you down!" bahaha. Karon ended sitting on the floor eating her marshmallows which now comes to think of it. It was her own marshmallows, she didn't have to hide! LOL

Anyways, Kebab for dinner as you can see from my previous post. I need to sleep earlier but I"m so full from drinking Lo Hon Guo =.= Herbal drinks are bad for you!..JEEZ

  ok bye.

P.S. Ling edited the picture of our heart. I cropped it and she "sticker-ised" it

[Ling's Pink Edition]

[My Purple Edition]

Yes. That's me & Evangeline Tee Chuan Ling. You know how when you have this group of friends who are like so close to you and you can just turn on msn and leave the webcam on even though you really aren't talking about anything? I just love these people.

I miss my friends, but thanks to technology and facebook, distance is so not a problem nowadays. Compare to when my dad went to England to study at the same age as me. He would only be able to receive one letter like in one term. One letter takes 2 weeks to arrive. Imagine that! Boom's having math tuition with Ellyn now while me and Ling decided to flunk it and go home to chat on msn :P haha. But we're still one big family. We took lots of pictures here they are....enjoy!

 ok bye.

[Crazy. I really liked this picture. Too bad I got cut in half.]

[Specs? Anyone?]

[Ugh. Chicken eyes rule!]

[It's time for food! Above: Cha siu pau Below: Chicken Kebab]

[Difference of black & white]

[Coward! Not loser! haha]

[Say you  need me, say you love me, and post it on a love wall :)]

[Ignore the drawing. It's called helping your friend to catch up on the latest news. LOL]

[Betulnya, macam satu babi ni!]

Pictures taken by: Kimberley Tham Mun-Yi
Other creature: Evangeline Tee Chuan Ling

Wow..I seriously don't know why I'm blogging again. I think it's because I've been going through my friends blogs and reminded me that I actually liked blogging but never really did it. Coz you know I'm a lazy girl.
So how are you? I know it's been five thousand years 8 months since I last uploaded. So I'm in semester 2 in school now. I really should do my homework or else I would need to bid my OP1 bye-bye. It's amazing, how last year in UEC I managed to score such wonderful marks although I never really did homework...hmmmm...anyways this post was meant to tell u this blog is up an running again but I guess not.

So just like every teenage girl, I have a crush! OMG! I can't believe I'm admitting it. Lol jks.
Jacqui know though, if I'm telling the truth :P right jacqui?....tsk tsk tsk. Anyways we get so high this few days just talking about boys. Luckily I get to call her for free or else I'm pretty sure I'll be deaf right now (note: sarcastic humour abt my mom screaming in my ear). Me, Jacqui, Linh & Tiffany call our boys David. Don't ask why. If you want to know just give Jacqui a call she'll tell ya. Her hp is 04-34762186 :]

Okay bye now I really need to sleep. Thank god I don't have core subjects tomorrow or should I be saying NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!


P.S. Is it weird to go crazy about boys?

P.P.S My previous P.S is a question that needs to be answered immediately!

Ya. erm. I think I never metion this since erm..2 months ago. But I'm officially outta here! I think blogger is too troublesome for me coz it's like writing an essay which I'm not good at. so haha.
Another way to put it is that I've moved to twitter coz I only have to create sentences there. haha. But I'll still be updating my blog. maybe every 2 months. haha! I guess I'll put something here when I really have something special to share with you. Over and Out.