Graduation Day

This is it guys. Graduation Day. 18th October 2011. I'm graduating high school.
It's been a long journey like a roller coaster ride but it was made easy with the help of family and friends :)

On a brighter note (not sure if it is brighter), I woke up at 6am today, yes 6am! I came downstairs and found my dad helping my mom dye her hair haha. last minute style! they are so cute :3
I have a mask on :/ probably should have kept that to myself huh aha.
I feel like I'm getting all ready for formal again.
ANYWAYS dad's gone out to send mum to bus stop and after that will probably have bfast with grandma. yup she's here too :)

ok bye.

Last Day of High School

I never thought this day would ever come seriously. It feels so unreal. I remember last day of primary school still! The first day of high school, where I sat, what poses I made for photos. Wow. I also remember the last day of school before moving to Brisbane, I remember the day I started high school in a totally new environment. Now that, was memorable. I remember telling my friends we've still got time to chill and enjoy high school life. I remember first day of senior year, I thought it would be a long year. But today has finally come, and it is my last day of high school. I really cannot believe it.

 ok bye.

Enough

So I just finished my performance for vocal soiree which is my last time ever, and I am so so so disappointed in myself.
I was just so nervous, it's not like me. I'm never nervous, even though I am I would calm down the moment I start singing, but this time my heart was just like going as fast as it could. I went outta tune not once but 3 effin times!! THREE!!!! I know this song so well and I sing it well too. Why oh why. So embarrassing. So not my standard.
Is this God's sign of asking me to quit fantasizing about being a singer? Well, if it is, it is working.
Coz now I'm not going to audition for graduation anymore.
I couldn't even pull of this song in front of what? 40 people? 50 max?
Talk about singing in front of the whole graduating class, plus their parents, plus the faculty plus the other students. More than 2000 I'm estimating?
My confidence just plunged to level zero....

Difference between talking & bragging

Warning: This is going to be a pretty long post with words and no pics :)

So I reached school at 8 40am this morning and as I was walking to form class I saw C sitting outside of J block. I didn’t want to say hi because I wanted to do my Chinese speech (the test is next Saturday FML). But then I heard “Kimberley!” and that’s when I knew it was unavoidable, so she walked up to me and I actually was being quite friendly (thinking that she had became a nicer person) and I found out that she had a vocal soiree audition. I was going to do my audition this Friday morning but anyways.

Do you know when someone is trying to brag about themselves in a bad way? Ya I mean I’m not trying to be mean or anything but knowing her character and all, to me it’s pretty obvious with her tone of voice. “Ms. N said I did really well, she asked me if I practiced and I said no (in a braggy tone, I’m not exaggerating)”. Well I would have felt happy for her but knowing her personality and stuff…

Then we talked about what song I was gonna sing for my audition, when I told her a Chinese song she was like “seriously? You may as well sing a Korean song like 2NE1’s lonely or something”. I swear  it’s her tone of voice. You have to hear her say it to you.  I dunno, I may be overreacting and being sensitive? 

After that, she continued with her bombardment with "You know when you sang should've said no last year, my mom was like 'oh you know that girl who sang with the violinist and guitarist, they were so out of tune'" I'm like -.- and you tell me this now because?? I'm like No we weren't and you know when someone tells you a comment about another person and that other person doesn't agree with the comment, usually the middle person would just say "Oh I don't know it was xxx who gave the comment" something like that right!　BUT she kept on insisting that we were out of tune so I the first thing that came out of my mouth was (while she was babbling on) "Erm, no we practiced in front of Ms. Lamount and Ms Nicholson and Mr Steele too and they said that we were pretty good". Of course I didn't say the last bit. I wish I did though (*^#^$#@ I dunno why at that moment, I actually wanted to cry :( I don't know the reason but just that I wondered why would she want to do that and why are there such people like her in the world. It’s just so sad..Gosh I sound so dramatic lol.

I am not a narcissist and my character and personality is seriously not like that. I AM NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO BRAG even if I wanted to >.> but,

I mean if I wasn't good and stuff why was I chosen to sang on assembly and not you? Why was I considered for the lead role for the school musical and not you? Why was I asked to perform during State High Beats and not you? Why did I pass the audition for last year's vocal soiree and you didn't? Furthermore, don't you ever wonder why why WHY some people just dislike you so much? Control your mouth please. 

감사합니다! There's my korean, in your face :P

ok bye.

P.S I sound so childish, who cares =D

Demi Lovato

Just love her and everything she does.


I like you, put your number, put your number in my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah~

So I talked to him on fb while he was at work. We talked for quite a long while.
Was gonna continue after I finish my shower. Except.
I went on a dance party with my mom at home. I created a list of KPOP songs with catchy dance moves and just dance for an hour and a half! Yes that's from 7:30 to 9:30p.m. wow! haha totally digging dancing again. I realize my flexibility is going down the drain seriously. can't even lift my left lef in a attitude of 90 degress anymore :(

and I tried to do this action again:


barely got my leg up to my head and didn't have any more strength asjdfhweur! CRIES
I wanna go back to Mrs. Lu and hear her yell even when waiting at the reception area. I miss ballet class.
I wanna go back to SDT and discover myself, push my limits and being the boss! nah jokes. I'm not that kind of person.
I wanna go back to 6th floor of CCA building (although I dread climbing up those stairs!) and grand jete from one corner of the studio to the other.
Ah memories...

Anyways.
I signed in to msn. and I still remembered when he said that he thought I was dead coz I signed in late that day. awww..
So I signed in right and he didn't say hi, so I went offline and signed in again ( I know, shut up!) and he said hello. hehhehe
I seriously hope he doesn't know this blog exists :O and if you are reading this, please just act like this is some random shit. lol thank you

ok bye.

My hair is done for formal! 

It's too curly I reckon. But! Hopefully! It will smooth out at night and make it more wavy and natural :)

I'm off to do my makeup now. So excited!

Alice & Becky are here too, they are all done.

ok bye.

SBS Star Audition

So I just submitted my application for SBS Star Audition.

I WANT IT SOOOOO BAD. like this is it. It's the best opportunity anyone could ever get.

What if I don't get excepted again coz of my weight? I'm actually a very appealing person u know

I know I'm so attractive.

But! seriously JYP or anyone from the casting director if you are reading this you know I was just joking and I don't look like that at all! send me an email and I'll send you tons of pictures to proof this one wrong. lmao.

ok back to the audition. Ya like the one i went to last December, I have to say I did not prepare my best for it but the days I waited to have the results announce were just torturing. Even the flight back to Brisbane.

I was still dreaming.

So now, again I wanna be a singer. I just love performing that much.

People have told me before that I should keep it as a hobby coz if it becomes my job and stress comes in, I won't enjoy it anymore. Which makes sense..

But that's the challenging part right? Overcoming the obstacle.

I just love to sing and dance and perform.

I can do it all day and everyday. no, I WANT TO.

ok bye.

Going to film my dance now.
I'm so nervous...I hope I can still keep my stupid low A -.-

I should get a higher mark than that low A.

so I've been talking to him..to tell u the truth, I've been waiting the whole night for him to talk to me.
Was telling ling about him and my dream which included black flying monkeys
but then he said he was gonna talk but instead went to play games instead -.-
but then he said he'll go on ebuddy which made me felt all giddy
then he sorta just went off to play your games again lol thought u left by now
and oh he just IM me again asking me why I'm not asleep. I replied, no answer must be gaming
ah boys.. so ya. love-why so complicated.

talking to ling too. she's the one that I can talk about personal deep deep stuff with. coz we can relate to each other. we might get angry or pissed at each other sometimes and it takes time to recover but ya it will be all good. I know most of her secrets and she knows most of mine. Except one, which only I will know forever..

ok bye.

talk to me. coz I think I enjoyed talking to you. Remember those times when the moment I logged on you'll just say hi I was bored. ya right you were bored. I mean for like 10 times seriously? aw u made me smile. and once I didn't till like late and u thought I was dead. Hahaha. It's nice chatting with you. so what happened? age difference. ran outta topic? c'mon u're better than that! And I dreamt about you last night. It was kinda weird....hmm.but it was nice :)

omg what am I talking about?! Calm yourself Kimberley. It's just a friend.

So. Maths. I wonder why I like you..
haha. It was not as bad as I thought it would be.
English tomorrow & thank you so much to my beloved aunt for helping me so much with english.
Seriously couldn't have done it without you.
I'm off to memorizing. byebye

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I am very blessed to have friends who care about me & like me for who I am.
However I realize that I tend to change who I am sometimes just to fit in.



Thanks Cami :)

ok bye.

Who created exams?

Oh Maths. I dunno if I love you or not?

Study hard!

ok bye.

Haters~

To make things worse, Monkey Studios stole our moves and the STTSS went to their leader too!!! I boiled up so hot, but yet, so speechless and in grief..And now, whenever i recall the occasion, i'll either punch the wall, gasp for air or shut my eyes really tight..haiz...

真的很生气自己!!!!!!!
不过, 拿到亚军也不错啦... 只是有点不甘愿monkey们拿而已... 说实在的, 我们的表演真的失水准了... 如果是'we like girls'是冠军的话, 还爽一下..

kimberly 拿到了tt star
全部人呜他.....
其实我觉得那个the monkey什么可以拿tt star的
很喜欢他们的表演"

The past should be the past. Why do I still spend my energy to dig up old & hateful comments?

迟来的祝福

你真是一位有天分的艺人，毕竟是天生及重小就开始训练，
唱歌跳舞之类都不是难事，再接再厉吧。
大家都累了，真的累了，可这是值得的，
这是一个回忆，一个美好的回忆，
大家都希望能在聚在一起练习

New Blog Design

As obviously you can tell.
I spent quite some time redecorating my blog. Reckoned it was getting black and gothic and just urgh! -shivers-
I think it reflects a lot more about my personality, with my dreams of being a singer (because I heart performing on stage) and wanting to leave a good impression on people.
So my blog title remains the same. Remember Kimberley T.

What a good impression huh :)

ok bye.

Think Stupid

Ok I need to type this up real quick.

You yes you. Girl. You really think you are intelligent? Well guess what. YOU'RE NOT!!
OMG. I seriously can't stand you anymore. Maybe I should delete you from my facebook friends list so I don't have to see you being a pessimist and commenting on everything that is happy news to me. When I first met you, I thought you were alright. But this one incident left a bad impression on me. and again it was because of what came out of your mouth!

First of all, do you know that containers comes in different sizes? I bet you starve everyday and go home and pig out. It is very rude too considering the fact that I am older than you. Show some respect please. You study science too right? So I'm pretty sure you understand that you have to cut your meat into smaller pieces and chew many times before you swallow it? No you don't know? you will choke! What the heck have you been doing in science classes -.- What you think hen wei sui meh? you are at a growing age my dear -vomit- you should be taking in certain amount of calcium/protein whatever. Let's see who have stronger bones when we hit 55 shall we? I can't wait >: THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! strike 1

Another time, hello, you have a brain. F***ing use it! Ever thought that our class just was warm because the windows were never open and you were in a science lab?? omg how stupid can u get. THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! and I am 100% sure, I always feel colder than you. wanna compare? be my guest! strike 2

Finally today, you did it again! Not directly in my face but on facebook. where EVERYONE may have saw it and yes you embarrassed me. You can say that I am xiao qi but I didn't like it because who gave you the right to make that comment at me and furthermore THREE times? huh? 请你分清楚谁比较大。我们是华人，请尊敬你的长辈！It was a status update, you don't know me, don't simply make comments about people you don't know personally ok. You don't even know me all we do is ask each other where is everyone else during breaks because it is so awkward between you and me. strike 3 & my final tolerance with you


You are not my family member or someone I care about, why should I care about what you say then? Some may say that I'm over-reacting and being sensitive, well that's how I am I guess. Once I determine the character and personality of a person and I don't like you (not the whole kindy thing but the mature "not like you") you're dead, unless you proof me wrong. Which has happened before. I'm mature enough to determine a kind hearted or similar person, I don't like to mix with people who have a bad influence on me. That's it. that's why I don't talk much with people I don't know and I feel awkward. and that's why my circle of friends is so small.

Now I have to go to school tomorrow, pretending to smile at you as if I'm totally fine (sry I'm not Kang Ho Dong). There's still another 9 weeks of school. fml at this point

people. THINK BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING~ 
gosh it's not that hard.

ok bye.

Confidence

Where has all my confidence gone to?

Knock knock, anyone there?

What exactly is a blog? A diary that one keep online?
I thought a diary was private and personal. However there's these people that "follows" you. What does that make blogging? Sometimes I just wish that I know someone reads my blog on a regular basis, so that I have a feeling as if I'm talking to someone and feel comforted. But I don't want you to read it as well because it's suppose to be personal. This is so confusing :/ Anyone out there? perhaps just gimme a nod? or something......

ok bye.

多可怜

I am sick and tired of always hearing “多可怜”。So what. C’mon la. You always told me to be strong and not see the negative side of things. But here you are, telling me about her. –sigh-

This is so irrelevant. I should be the understanding one and shouldn’t be complaining here. I’m actually being very immature. However, I’m just not mature I guess? No that’s not it. And it is not because of me wanting attention as well. Not the sibling rivalry thing. No, nothing near there. I dunno how to explain how I feel. Like after that phone call, I just felt really pissed not at her but at you. The way you talked to me, it’s like you expected it to be “common sense”. But it was!! To me!! It’s natural! Facebook is a place where it’s like my non-private diary. I express my feelings there, I don’t care what people see because that’s what facebook is about. Knowing people’s life but pretending that you don’t. Does that makes sense? Who cares? This is only meant for me to read.

Anyways, I would say. It’s neither your fault or my fault. I don’t see what’s wrong with me posting that on fb, it’s not like I’m destroying you. As a matter of fact, it’s something so joyous that I couldn’t wait to share with my friends (thanks for pouring cold water on me). If you have a problem with that post because you are afraid of your in-laws seeing it. Then I have to say I don’t understand a bit. One, I am still a teenager, I don’t understand the “stressful-in-law” thing. Two, it was about THEIR grandchild being born. OMG! What cannot take stress again? Haish. I don’t even want to hear the explanation to this outbreak. I guess I just don’t understand people who can’t take pressure because obviously I been through a very hard time (not saying that yours isn’t) for the first two years of high school. 

I apologise if I upset you. And I hope you have a smooth delivery tonight (if he decides to come out tonight. lol) and I seriously hope you or my parents or Shannon (shh!!) or the any of the in-laws read this post. Or else I’ll be in such huge touble this would be my last post. Our relationship will seriously be forever damaged.

P.S. I still remember you giving me a facial when I was just 9 and hugging me till I fell asleep in your arms J with the facial still on my face haha.

ok bye.

FML part 2

I hate this feeling. It feels like I 欠人家人情. We fight because of this STUPID ISSUES! YES IT MIGHT BE A HUGE ONE. BUT IS IT WORTH IT???????????? TO MOVE HERE AND FIGHT OVER THIS KIND OF ISSUES WHEN BACK HOME WE HAD OUR OWN PLACE!!! CONTROL YOUR TEMPER WOULD YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!

ok bye.