Cheerful

What is this feeling. You think about how life would be for other people if you weren't around anymore. But you know you can never go there because you know it will kill your parents. The responsibility is too great, you can never afford to just leave. Perhaps I'm the one that needs to let go? What is this feeling.

There's just so much. 

What if I cried a broken heart?

What if I cried of the weight from her?

What if I cried of the weight from him?

What if I cried because I just don't know?

A hand on the shoulder, the weight of all the love in the world. 

At the end of the day, it's just me anyways.  

Blessed & Lucky

I can't believe it. I'm a president of a club in uni. Not just any uni, UQ. Well to me it's just UQ but to other people it's UQ! Never would I have imagine myself to be so active in a society. I always thought that the day I moved to Brisbane, it was the day my extra curriculum activities ended.

Non-member to VP Marketing, one year on, President (feels weird saying it). Wow. I do the darnest things haha. Dad was the greatest Toastmaster president and mom was the woman behind him, no pressure Kimberley. I know my parents are very proud of me, especially mom. So nervous yet still didn't want to message me because she couldn't bear to hear the results. And dad is just happy because I'm always Francis Tham junior, like father like daughter.

So yea,

2016 ACYA Execs

Aaron & Paulina

P.S. Happy one month baby! so lucky to have you. Love you so so much xoxo

Because I met you, and everything fell into place :) 

#thanksforwaiting

Kpop Star Season 2 Audition

I flew all the way to Sydney for the weekend just to audition for SBS Kpop Star Season 2. And I didn't make it.

I have to say I was shocked, I really thought I had it this time. First time in HK, ya I wasn't impressive; second time round in GZ my heart accelerated because of my sickness and this time I thought I would have everything under control. I actually am very confused why I didn't get in. I watched all the past auditionees experience clips on youtube and they showed the dance that they did. It wasn't even impressive and they managed to get into second round! Don't say they had that charisma, individuality, coz they did not.

The only thing I could think of as for the reasons that I couldn't get in was because 1) I went to early. My god I was number 9! I obviously didn't learn from my lesson in GZ. 2) There was a little girl a few numbers before I and she passed so obviously they couldn't pass that many people within such short period of time. I mean when I was singing Rolling In The Deep, one of the judges was really into it, she was nodding her head to the beat. Then they asked me to dance, which I did. They let me finish the off choreography for god's sake! Usually, they would ask you to stop if they had no interest in you but they made me do the whole dance. When I was finished and catching my breath, the translator said "sorry you didn't make it". I think my world stopped for a second while the words sunk in. I had to put on this stupid smiley face and walk out of the room with a camera up in my face. I was really down the whole afternoon, and my walk to Coogee Beach did not help AT ALL.

Anyways, maybe this is God's sign telling me that the Korean industry is not for me, or rather the entertainment industry in general. But I really do not see myself in the future doing anything else other than this. And missing my mom does not help. I've never realize how much I missed my mom and always took her for granted until this trip. Wondering why she didn't call every hour like she'll use to when I'm in Brisbane. What if I really did get accepted and become a trainee in Korea. I'll only get to communicate with her once every three days. Very cruel I'd say. That's one of the obstacles that I'm facing in chasing my dreams. I'm the only child and I'm so close with my parents. I'm their everything, their world and they love me so much. I feel so guilty that I have this dream. I feel like I'm betraying them and won't be able to repay them. I'll miss them so much and they'll miss me to death.

Another chance gone....why do I keep making the wrong decisions? I'm flying back tomorrow and I have to go to the three hour economics lecture right after I land. Oh the joy. I seriously don't feel like studying now, perhaps a gap year is suitable for me. I know I won't do well in my studies because I'm not putting any effort in it. It's just not my focus now. It's not what I want to do now. For example, I read this article about 14 years old going on reality shows (The Voice, X Factor); are they considered too young? Some argued that not at all. It's just like olympic swimmers, since they were 10, they'd wake up at 5am in the morning, go to training and miss the first period of school. Their aim is to compete in the Olympics, and because of that they must train since young in order to be considered for the Olympics. Is it worth it? Absolutely, definitely, when they swim in the Olympic games.

Moral of the story? I don't know....

ok bye.

TVB Singing Finals

I came fourth! It was held in Logan Entertainment Centre, started at 6:30pm. Here's the rundown.

Individual rehearsals in the morning then opening number in the afternoon. Makeup and hair started at 4pm. Makeup was by Amy. She's experience but she only sponsored hair. As for the makeup. My god..I was really shocked when I saw one of the girls makeup. I had to ask her twice if she was done with her makeup. It wasn't even stage makeup! More like a everyday look. Really jaw-dropping. Luckily Amy helped to touch up. Show was suppose to start at 6:30pm but at 6pm half the girls and the guys still had not had their makeup done. Seriously?!

Opening number: Xin Zhe De Ai
My panty hose was dropping! No kidding! So I wasn't that high during this number I was like keeping my legs crossed the whole time LOL

1st Song: What Have You Done by G.E.M.
So happy with my performance especially after I watched the recording.I was contestant no.4 btw. SYY came running backstage and said that my voice was warmed up and everything was just perfect ^^ Then suddenly her face was blue, and I thought I was about to faint. I was like why's your face blue, and she hugged me tightly and both of us were really scared. Turns out that we were standing under a blue light. But after that, I realized that that wasn't the matter. Other people stood below the blue light too and their face didn't turn blue. What happened to me??

2nd Song: Wasn't really sure if I was gonna be Top 5 and be able to skip second round. The first announced Fiona and she was no. 7. So I thought they were announcing it according to number sequence so I was like awww I didn't make it into Top 5 but never mind! Then they were like Number 4 Kimberley. I was seriously surprised! Really did not expect them to go in random order. 

3rd Song: Xiao Sa Zhou Yi Hui (PK Round)
I was very satisfied with my song choice for this Golden Melody Round. My dress was beautiful and just suited the song oh-so-perfectly! The Top 5 were invited onto the stage again and the other Top 5 from second round were announced. We had to then choose the order that we were gonna sing in and guess what, I was number 4 again! haha. I was paired up against this guy and I thought hmm shouldn't be that bad. When it was our turn, I sang first, so I had to stand at the side of the stage while he was singing and I had no idea that he had standard. He's song was a slow song by Leslie Cheung and it was very emotional, totally different from mine. I was actually scared whether if I'd be able to win him. But I did. Thank god!

4th Song: I Believe by Jane Zhang (Acapella)
So last round. I blew it HA. I was the 2nd one to sing. It was going well until I came out from the high note. Totally lost my pitch LOL. Just went flat or rather sharp haha. I find it funny too. I knew I was 4th after Danielle sang.

I'm just happy and grateful that my heart was under control and did not accelerate at all. Not even once! Maybe because I took the medicine, but still! At least I could show my best. I came fourth. Funny how the whole night, the number four kept appearing huh. It's my new lucky number, despite being bad in Chinese culture. haha who cares.

I really wished that I got at least 3rd place. If only I sang Xin Zhe De Ai, but oh well, it's over now...What I wanna get out is that the standard between me and 5th place are totally different. Like, I've been trained since young so I've got certain standard, and it's just that we are at a different level. Makes me sound really snobbish but it's just a fact. I'm not being proud or dissing anyone. It's my diary anyways. No one gonna read me...sigh Kimberley.

ok bye.

Fustrated.

You guys don't have the qualifications to debut. Do you even want it at all? Can you even carry a note? You probably got chosen coz you were skinny and you had that hint of dance background. Well I know training was tough but do you even have the passion? What is your goal and aim?

Well you guys are starting a new journey. I'm still stuck in stupid Brisbane whether nothing happens. Clock is ticking and I don't have much time anymore. My singing technique doesn't seem to be improving. I wanna take a gap year and just concentrate and do my best and see where it'll take me. A part of me wants it so badly but another part of me tells me that it's never gonna happen and I should just concentrate on the reality.  Easier said than that.

Competition is in three weeks. THREE! And out of the fours songs that I have to prepare I only know the lyrics to one. Good job! I do feel like giving up and pull out of the competition but I'm sure this is just where I am having my "down time". Probably wasn't the best idea to yell just now. My throat hurts now.

They ask me to pray. And I did, every day during that period. But nothing happened. I guess it's all boiled down to hard work again huh? Again easier said than done.

ok bye.

Shinhwa (신화) - Venus ( Title Song )

I feel so useless like I'm not worth anything. I feel like I could have done so much better if I tried harder. I feel like I'm such a failure, sad to have a child like me huh. I feel like life is just leading me no where and I don't see myself even in the next 10 years. Let's just hope the world really ends this year so I can start a new life and try again.

Shedding all the tears to ahieve this dream, is it really worth it?

So I'm back in KK and I should be ecstatic but I'm not. I thought I would be. My mood changes all the time similar to a mood swing. Where should i start? Uni?
Well uni. The words are kinda scary to me. BEWARE: THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST!
Well I did not get accepted to engineering at uq which was a disappointment coz I thought if I got it then everything will be solved and I won't have second thoughts on it. But no I got QS instead. And then now I think I want to study optometry so badly. I'm very sure if I study media or something I would be good at it. But being Canto I want face. so yea I'm so self-conscious and scared of what people would think of me it is ridiculous I know but I can't change my mind that easily can I? Why can't there be just a course to be a singer.
I wanna earn money yes I admit I like fame in a good way not coz I'm proud but I am the type of person that needs compliments then I will improve. If you don't compliment me then I'll think I suck and won't bother at improving myself. I know this sounds very bad but trust me I'm not an obnoxious person and definitely not hidung tinggi. Just you knw everyone works differently.

Graduation Day

This is it guys. Graduation Day. 18th October 2011. I'm graduating high school.
It's been a long journey like a roller coaster ride but it was made easy with the help of family and friends :)

On a brighter note (not sure if it is brighter), I woke up at 6am today, yes 6am! I came downstairs and found my dad helping my mom dye her hair haha. last minute style! they are so cute :3
I have a mask on :/ probably should have kept that to myself huh aha.
I feel like I'm getting all ready for formal again.
ANYWAYS dad's gone out to send mum to bus stop and after that will probably have bfast with grandma. yup she's here too :)

ok bye.

Last Day of High School

I never thought this day would ever come seriously. It feels so unreal. I remember last day of primary school still! The first day of high school, where I sat, what poses I made for photos. Wow. I also remember the last day of school before moving to Brisbane, I remember the day I started high school in a totally new environment. Now that, was memorable. I remember telling my friends we've still got time to chill and enjoy high school life. I remember first day of senior year, I thought it would be a long year. But today has finally come, and it is my last day of high school. I really cannot believe it.

 ok bye.

Enough

So I just finished my performance for vocal soiree which is my last time ever, and I am so so so disappointed in myself.
I was just so nervous, it's not like me. I'm never nervous, even though I am I would calm down the moment I start singing, but this time my heart was just like going as fast as it could. I went outta tune not once but 3 effin times!! THREE!!!! I know this song so well and I sing it well too. Why oh why. So embarrassing. So not my standard.
Is this God's sign of asking me to quit fantasizing about being a singer? Well, if it is, it is working.
Coz now I'm not going to audition for graduation anymore.
I couldn't even pull of this song in front of what? 40 people? 50 max?
Talk about singing in front of the whole graduating class, plus their parents, plus the faculty plus the other students. More than 2000 I'm estimating?
My confidence just plunged to level zero....

Difference between talking & bragging

Warning: This is going to be a pretty long post with words and no pics :)

So I reached school at 8 40am this morning and as I was walking to form class I saw C sitting outside of J block. I didn’t want to say hi because I wanted to do my Chinese speech (the test is next Saturday FML). But then I heard “Kimberley!” and that’s when I knew it was unavoidable, so she walked up to me and I actually was being quite friendly (thinking that she had became a nicer person) and I found out that she had a vocal soiree audition. I was going to do my audition this Friday morning but anyways.

Do you know when someone is trying to brag about themselves in a bad way? Ya I mean I’m not trying to be mean or anything but knowing her character and all, to me it’s pretty obvious with her tone of voice. “Ms. N said I did really well, she asked me if I practiced and I said no (in a braggy tone, I’m not exaggerating)”. Well I would have felt happy for her but knowing her personality and stuff…

Then we talked about what song I was gonna sing for my audition, when I told her a Chinese song she was like “seriously? You may as well sing a Korean song like 2NE1’s lonely or something”. I swear  it’s her tone of voice. You have to hear her say it to you.  I dunno, I may be overreacting and being sensitive? 

After that, she continued with her bombardment with "You know when you sang should've said no last year, my mom was like 'oh you know that girl who sang with the violinist and guitarist, they were so out of tune'" I'm like -.- and you tell me this now because?? I'm like No we weren't and you know when someone tells you a comment about another person and that other person doesn't agree with the comment, usually the middle person would just say "Oh I don't know it was xxx who gave the comment" something like that right!　BUT she kept on insisting that we were out of tune so I the first thing that came out of my mouth was (while she was babbling on) "Erm, no we practiced in front of Ms. Lamount and Ms Nicholson and Mr Steele too and they said that we were pretty good". Of course I didn't say the last bit. I wish I did though (*^#^$#@ I dunno why at that moment, I actually wanted to cry :( I don't know the reason but just that I wondered why would she want to do that and why are there such people like her in the world. It’s just so sad..Gosh I sound so dramatic lol.

I am not a narcissist and my character and personality is seriously not like that. I AM NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO BRAG even if I wanted to >.> but,

I mean if I wasn't good and stuff why was I chosen to sang on assembly and not you? Why was I considered for the lead role for the school musical and not you? Why was I asked to perform during State High Beats and not you? Why did I pass the audition for last year's vocal soiree and you didn't? Furthermore, don't you ever wonder why why WHY some people just dislike you so much? Control your mouth please. 

감사합니다! There's my korean, in your face :P

ok bye.

P.S I sound so childish, who cares =D

Demi Lovato

Just love her and everything she does.


I like you, put your number, put your number in my phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, phone, yeah~

So I talked to him on fb while he was at work. We talked for quite a long while.
Was gonna continue after I finish my shower. Except.
I went on a dance party with my mom at home. I created a list of KPOP songs with catchy dance moves and just dance for an hour and a half! Yes that's from 7:30 to 9:30p.m. wow! haha totally digging dancing again. I realize my flexibility is going down the drain seriously. can't even lift my left lef in a attitude of 90 degress anymore :(

and I tried to do this action again:


barely got my leg up to my head and didn't have any more strength asjdfhweur! CRIES
I wanna go back to Mrs. Lu and hear her yell even when waiting at the reception area. I miss ballet class.
I wanna go back to SDT and discover myself, push my limits and being the boss! nah jokes. I'm not that kind of person.
I wanna go back to 6th floor of CCA building (although I dread climbing up those stairs!) and grand jete from one corner of the studio to the other.
Ah memories...

Anyways.
I signed in to msn. and I still remembered when he said that he thought I was dead coz I signed in late that day. awww..
So I signed in right and he didn't say hi, so I went offline and signed in again ( I know, shut up!) and he said hello. hehhehe
I seriously hope he doesn't know this blog exists :O and if you are reading this, please just act like this is some random shit. lol thank you

ok bye.

My hair is done for formal! 

It's too curly I reckon. But! Hopefully! It will smooth out at night and make it more wavy and natural :)

I'm off to do my makeup now. So excited!

Alice & Becky are here too, they are all done.

ok bye.

SBS Star Audition

So I just submitted my application for SBS Star Audition.

I WANT IT SOOOOO BAD. like this is it. It's the best opportunity anyone could ever get.

What if I don't get excepted again coz of my weight? I'm actually a very appealing person u know

I know I'm so attractive.

But! seriously JYP or anyone from the casting director if you are reading this you know I was just joking and I don't look like that at all! send me an email and I'll send you tons of pictures to proof this one wrong. lmao.

ok back to the audition. Ya like the one i went to last December, I have to say I did not prepare my best for it but the days I waited to have the results announce were just torturing. Even the flight back to Brisbane.

I was still dreaming.

So now, again I wanna be a singer. I just love performing that much.

People have told me before that I should keep it as a hobby coz if it becomes my job and stress comes in, I won't enjoy it anymore. Which makes sense..

But that's the challenging part right? Overcoming the obstacle.

I just love to sing and dance and perform.

I can do it all day and everyday. no, I WANT TO.

ok bye.

Going to film my dance now.
I'm so nervous...I hope I can still keep my stupid low A -.-

I should get a higher mark than that low A.

so I've been talking to him..to tell u the truth, I've been waiting the whole night for him to talk to me.
Was telling ling about him and my dream which included black flying monkeys
but then he said he was gonna talk but instead went to play games instead -.-
but then he said he'll go on ebuddy which made me felt all giddy
then he sorta just went off to play your games again lol thought u left by now
and oh he just IM me again asking me why I'm not asleep. I replied, no answer must be gaming
ah boys.. so ya. love-why so complicated.

talking to ling too. she's the one that I can talk about personal deep deep stuff with. coz we can relate to each other. we might get angry or pissed at each other sometimes and it takes time to recover but ya it will be all good. I know most of her secrets and she knows most of mine. Except one, which only I will know forever..

ok bye.

talk to me. coz I think I enjoyed talking to you. Remember those times when the moment I logged on you'll just say hi I was bored. ya right you were bored. I mean for like 10 times seriously? aw u made me smile. and once I didn't till like late and u thought I was dead. Hahaha. It's nice chatting with you. so what happened? age difference. ran outta topic? c'mon u're better than that! And I dreamt about you last night. It was kinda weird....hmm.but it was nice :)

omg what am I talking about?! Calm yourself Kimberley. It's just a friend.

So. Maths. I wonder why I like you..
haha. It was not as bad as I thought it would be.
English tomorrow & thank you so much to my beloved aunt for helping me so much with english.
Seriously couldn't have done it without you.
I'm off to memorizing. byebye

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

I am very blessed to have friends who care about me & like me for who I am.
However I realize that I tend to change who I am sometimes just to fit in.



Thanks Cami :)

ok bye.

Who created exams?

Oh Maths. I dunno if I love you or not?

Study hard!

ok bye.

Haters~

To make things worse, Monkey Studios stole our moves and the STTSS went to their leader too!!! I boiled up so hot, but yet, so speechless and in grief..And now, whenever i recall the occasion, i'll either punch the wall, gasp for air or shut my eyes really tight..haiz...

真的很生气自己!!!!!!!
不过, 拿到亚军也不错啦... 只是有点不甘愿monkey们拿而已... 说实在的, 我们的表演真的失水准了... 如果是'we like girls'是冠军的话, 还爽一下..

kimberly 拿到了tt star
全部人呜他.....
其实我觉得那个the monkey什么可以拿tt star的
很喜欢他们的表演"

The past should be the past. Why do I still spend my energy to dig up old & hateful comments?

迟来的祝福

你真是一位有天分的艺人，毕竟是天生及重小就开始训练，
唱歌跳舞之类都不是难事，再接再厉吧。
大家都累了，真的累了，可这是值得的，
这是一个回忆，一个美好的回忆，
大家都希望能在聚在一起练习

New Blog Design

As obviously you can tell.
I spent quite some time redecorating my blog. Reckoned it was getting black and gothic and just urgh! -shivers-
I think it reflects a lot more about my personality, with my dreams of being a singer (because I heart performing on stage) and wanting to leave a good impression on people.
So my blog title remains the same. Remember Kimberley T.

What a good impression huh :)

ok bye.

Think Stupid

Ok I need to type this up real quick.

You yes you. Girl. You really think you are intelligent? Well guess what. YOU'RE NOT!!
OMG. I seriously can't stand you anymore. Maybe I should delete you from my facebook friends list so I don't have to see you being a pessimist and commenting on everything that is happy news to me. When I first met you, I thought you were alright. But this one incident left a bad impression on me. and again it was because of what came out of your mouth!

First of all, do you know that containers comes in different sizes? I bet you starve everyday and go home and pig out. It is very rude too considering the fact that I am older than you. Show some respect please. You study science too right? So I'm pretty sure you understand that you have to cut your meat into smaller pieces and chew many times before you swallow it? No you don't know? you will choke! What the heck have you been doing in science classes -.- What you think hen wei sui meh? you are at a growing age my dear -vomit- you should be taking in certain amount of calcium/protein whatever. Let's see who have stronger bones when we hit 55 shall we? I can't wait >: THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! strike 1

Another time, hello, you have a brain. F***ing use it! Ever thought that our class just was warm because the windows were never open and you were in a science lab?? omg how stupid can u get. THINK BEFORE YOU TALK BA!!! and I am 100% sure, I always feel colder than you. wanna compare? be my guest! strike 2

Finally today, you did it again! Not directly in my face but on facebook. where EVERYONE may have saw it and yes you embarrassed me. You can say that I am xiao qi but I didn't like it because who gave you the right to make that comment at me and furthermore THREE times? huh? 请你分清楚谁比较大。我们是华人，请尊敬你的长辈！It was a status update, you don't know me, don't simply make comments about people you don't know personally ok. You don't even know me all we do is ask each other where is everyone else during breaks because it is so awkward between you and me. strike 3 & my final tolerance with you


You are not my family member or someone I care about, why should I care about what you say then? Some may say that I'm over-reacting and being sensitive, well that's how I am I guess. Once I determine the character and personality of a person and I don't like you (not the whole kindy thing but the mature "not like you") you're dead, unless you proof me wrong. Which has happened before. I'm mature enough to determine a kind hearted or similar person, I don't like to mix with people who have a bad influence on me. That's it. that's why I don't talk much with people I don't know and I feel awkward. and that's why my circle of friends is so small.

Now I have to go to school tomorrow, pretending to smile at you as if I'm totally fine (sry I'm not Kang Ho Dong). There's still another 9 weeks of school. fml at this point

people. THINK BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING~ 
gosh it's not that hard.

ok bye.

Confidence

Where has all my confidence gone to?

Knock knock, anyone there?

What exactly is a blog? A diary that one keep online?
I thought a diary was private and personal. However there's these people that "follows" you. What does that make blogging? Sometimes I just wish that I know someone reads my blog on a regular basis, so that I have a feeling as if I'm talking to someone and feel comforted. But I don't want you to read it as well because it's suppose to be personal. This is so confusing :/ Anyone out there? perhaps just gimme a nod? or something......

ok bye.

多可怜

I am sick and tired of always hearing “多可怜”。So what. C’mon la. You always told me to be strong and not see the negative side of things. But here you are, telling me about her. –sigh-

This is so irrelevant. I should be the understanding one and shouldn’t be complaining here. I’m actually being very immature. However, I’m just not mature I guess? No that’s not it. And it is not because of me wanting attention as well. Not the sibling rivalry thing. No, nothing near there. I dunno how to explain how I feel. Like after that phone call, I just felt really pissed not at her but at you. The way you talked to me, it’s like you expected it to be “common sense”. But it was!! To me!! It’s natural! Facebook is a place where it’s like my non-private diary. I express my feelings there, I don’t care what people see because that’s what facebook is about. Knowing people’s life but pretending that you don’t. Does that makes sense? Who cares? This is only meant for me to read.

Anyways, I would say. It’s neither your fault or my fault. I don’t see what’s wrong with me posting that on fb, it’s not like I’m destroying you. As a matter of fact, it’s something so joyous that I couldn’t wait to share with my friends (thanks for pouring cold water on me). If you have a problem with that post because you are afraid of your in-laws seeing it. Then I have to say I don’t understand a bit. One, I am still a teenager, I don’t understand the “stressful-in-law” thing. Two, it was about THEIR grandchild being born. OMG! What cannot take stress again? Haish. I don’t even want to hear the explanation to this outbreak. I guess I just don’t understand people who can’t take pressure because obviously I been through a very hard time (not saying that yours isn’t) for the first two years of high school. 

I apologise if I upset you. And I hope you have a smooth delivery tonight (if he decides to come out tonight. lol) and I seriously hope you or my parents or Shannon (shh!!) or the any of the in-laws read this post. Or else I’ll be in such huge touble this would be my last post. Our relationship will seriously be forever damaged.

P.S. I still remember you giving me a facial when I was just 9 and hugging me till I fell asleep in your arms J with the facial still on my face haha.

ok bye.

FML part 2

I hate this feeling. It feels like I 欠人家人情. We fight because of this STUPID ISSUES! YES IT MIGHT BE A HUGE ONE. BUT IS IT WORTH IT???????????? TO MOVE HERE AND FIGHT OVER THIS KIND OF ISSUES WHEN BACK HOME WE HAD OUR OWN PLACE!!! CONTROL YOUR TEMPER WOULD YOU PLEASE!!!!!!!!

ok bye.

Christmas

Merry Christmas everybody!

I would totally just put the "ok bye" right here and here but I just read my cousin's blog and she updates almost everyday. At least she tries to and they are at least a page long! I need motivation man.

So ya Christmas Day. Got woken up very early again (well to me that is) and took MTR all the way to Hong Kong station and went around looking at xmas decorations with dad and mom. Then we went to Yong Kee and had xmas lunch with dad's friends. I got a Christmas present from the wife too haha notice how I said the wife. anyways...... Ya it was a beautiful mirror from England. Now that adds to my collection of souveniers from England which includes a "I went to London and didn't know what to buy for you so I got you this mug" from Chloe, a classic old English red telephone box magnet from my piano teacher and now this! Fascinating isn't it. We had scallop, prawn, abalone and the goose came last? beats the whole purpose of going to the restaurant actually. We were all so full already. Oh and did I mention that it was listed on the Michelin list back in 2009? Hmm.

Went round walking again. Causeway bay = P-A-C-K-E-D with people. I hate crowds well not really. It's fun once in a while. Had RuRu jie's favourite Tiny Pig Bun hehe. and went next door again for a family favourite. frozen yoghurt ice-cream. EVERYBODY SCREAM!! AHHHH. hehe. ya we had old house crumbs.

Came home at night and talked to Shannon, Clayton and lalayee yee for 1:15:34 hours to be exact ^^ Gosh I miss them so badly. The last time I saw them was a year ago? ya. I would be so excited when they went back to KK for the summer hols. Good times. And 2008 Christmas was the best! xoxo

P.S My xmas present was a new set of pink earphones. I needed them haha.

ok bye.

Action speaks louder than words.

Apparently. That sentence does not appear in my dictionary. Because yes you do a lot of actions. But you don't say a thing! How am I suppose to know what does it mean?

Don't let me blinded by your actions again, coz I cannot take another plunge to hell. (especially when exams are soon, NOT THE POINT). So ya, say something! Or I'll just continuing ignore you and listen to the teacher babble at the front of the class. Thank you. Appreciated.

P.S School was somewhat exciting. Especially during that 1 minute.

ok bye.

Doink.

Word of the year! D-O-I-N-K.
It's actually pronounced dwaioun~ hahahha! It's like a spring? Do you get it? Thought by my beloved cousin, Ms. Soo Yunn Ru. haha. It's awesome. pretty much. But it gets annoying to some people but it's pretty much addictive. Doink!

School has started for quite some time. 3 weeks into the last term. And 2 months of summer break then I'm gonna be in Year 12! Oh no. yes. Oh no! I'm graduating after that, from high school. Time passes really fast, too fast in my opinion. I still remember the first day of primary school. I cried and therefore, was not selected to become class monitor. Well, at least that's what my form teacher told me -shrugs-\

But I really don't wanna graduate yet. Perhaps one more year, then I'll be prepared.

It's not that I don't know what I want to study, it's because I want to be a singer. I'm serious. And this ambition in asian world it's mostly a big NONO. Yes my mom says "sure you can do that, after you graduate from university." DOINK!

[Last year's comp. Champion baby! Go J3 He 2010. From left to right: Michelle, Shroomie, Me & Ling]

I've been really addicted to kpop recently. 2PM is really good. You can tell that they were trained hard before they debuted. Singing live is not easy, especially when you need to dance as well. I know that coz when I sang Party Just Begun during teacher's day with camilla and natalie. BOY! -hits the gym-

Well. That's it. from my life. for now. I need to go study.

[I miss going for vocal lessons every week. Although I was always scared of going! haha. Ms Teo & Ms. Wong]

[Me & Boomie! She's holding my bottle. P.S. I lost it! Champion for choir & Best Conductor Award :)]

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New phone :3

It's a LG GT540. Couldn't choose white or pink. But decided to go with the white after 2 hours of thinking! hahas..met up with ling ling too. din get any pics at all darn it..Stick for more updates! btw this is the phone I got :)

P.S I'm in HK now

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The Wedding

It was awesome :) as simple as that. Early in the morning we woke up around 10 30 and went straight to wisma merdeka. FunFun yee yee tried on this dress from NOW and as usual said she didn't like it. hahas. But RuRu Jie Jie bought it secretly for her, as usual as well. hahas! Me and Jer Yenn just roamed around looking for a necklace that would go with my dress (which ended up did not at all). And I did not realize that I could be that close to my other cousins as well. So ya well mostly we gossip lmao. This is so wrong~ After that we went to Centre Point to "switch people" with Siaw Yee Yee. Which means that Jia Po got on and went back to Putatan with Teddy Yi Chongm, Yunn Ru & FunFun YeeYee while me Yunn Jyy & Jer Yenn got off and followed Siaw Yee, Uncle Anthony & Shanice <3 What a funny arrangement. ah the lin family~

We then went to Jer Yenn's friend's salon called Non-Stop at Centre Point, I got my hair washed and cut. That siaw yee yee dumped me there alone :( she said she was afraid that it will take too long and we were rushing against time. So ya. I sat alone with all this people I did not feel comfortable with. But I'm quite happy with my fringe. but IT COST SO MUCH! should have waited and gone to mode == When he told me 50 I was seriously stunned! I was like 酱贵?!! So expensive. And he was like huh? oh then erm 40 then. 看我是就个小孩子就好欺负是吗? ^&^%$#$%^&*&^%$#$%a and it wasn't really that good of a hair wash ANYWAYS

I then went to look for siaw yee yee at Patrick Saloon, Shanice was hungry so me and Yunn Jyy brought her downstairs to buy food. I got myself waffles from Daily Fresh -drools- and got Shanice my favourite Hot Dog Satay Bun!! IPP >.< When we went up to look at Siaw Yee Yee MAHAHAHHAHAHA her hair as I describe it was like a bird nest :D reminds me of the Olympic Nest in Beijing MAHAHHAHAHHAHAH funny as. But I sorta knew that she would look good when she put on her evening dress and make up and so on..And she did! 

Everyone was rushing in the hotel room, doing make up, changing, styling hair, going to the toilet! hahas only soo jer yenn was boring as. he was ss-ing in the bathroom ok? omg! so him. and he was so bored until he helped everyone iron their clothes. so man rite? 8D Tai Kiu called twice and was asking me and yunn jyy to go down already as we were emcees for the night :) oh yea~

Everything went smoothly, I had to sing a song coz there wasn't enough programme. or so we thought. I sang woosa woosa, went out of tune definitely. No warm up and no singing for almost a year? what do u expect? pfft..it was a wonderful and joyous night. but I think I'm a anti high heels for the time being. My feet are killing me!!!!!!!! And they are swollen now :( the nerve thingo it just became black and huge and you can see all the nerves surrounding it -imagine the worst scenario :)- We took lots of picture. Have a look. enjoy!

[Shanice was so happy!!]

[Bride's Father Tai Kiu & Aunty Jenny (Tai Kiu was sooo happy)]

[The Brisbane People~]

[The Soo glamorous Family :)]

[90 degree strong man! hahas]

[Emcees of the night: me (english) & Yunn Jyy (Chinese)]

[Take 1: Peace out!]

[Take 2: Smile!]

[Take 3: Look to the left!]

[Last take: Everybody Look up!]

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P.S This is a special post to me that's why the layout is different :)

Feel the breeze

Tiffany's been complaining how I get to leave school earlier for a whole week and that I get to miss all my assignments. Well actually it's everyone LOL. But I still have to pass up my Maths B, Maths C, Chemistry and English assignments. Plus my Dance and Physics exam..so ya. So I went to Garden City with Tiffany to do some last minute shopping for yes, you people. Katie Yap. Shereen Wong & Tee Chuan Ling. So say thank you to Tiff. Btw she's sarawakian :)

I made a significant move by not taking the 150. I think it's good coz I reckon all that is going on now is too much of a waste of my energy and time. Since we both had to go to the toilet really urgently, so we did. Lmao! Tiff had KFC (i couldn't be bothered since in less than 12 hours I'll be back) while I had sushi again. She had passion mango and I had strawberry squeeze. Both from boost. We then went to diva and I didn't find anything that i really like or within my budget so Tiff suggested Equip which was the same. Hahas. Then we went to City Beach and I found the perfect thing! OMG! I still can't believe it. I can't tell you what it is coz they might read this post and I don't want to spoil the surprise :)

Anyways, my feet hurts really badly now. I still need to go home and pack:-S Here's a photo of me and Tiff trying on sunglasses. she's so gonna kill me "why's my face so big?!!" Hahas

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Set 2

Set 1

FML

1) I found out something I wish I did not find out although it may not be true.

2) I saw a picture I wish I did not see because it still breaks my heart.

3) I wish you could have kept your thoughts to yourself.

4) I wish I could just sit at Starbucks or some old kopi tiam with Evangeline for hours and just talk.

5) I wish Jacqueline Wong & Camilla Moi wasn't on the other side of the country. Don't care Jacqui. Still far.

6) I wish Shereen Wong & Katie Yap are right there beside me when I walk pass you.

7) I wish some dreams I have at night wouldn't be the opposite. I know they never happen.

8) I know that you don't give a shit, but I still have the slightest hope in my heart.

9) Life isn't that easy.

[Taken: 10th of October 2009]

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Are you excited? Coz I totally am :)

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Riverfire

Not that I went. Didn't feel like it since I was out the whole day today. I told my mom it is now 9:50 and I was suppose to be in bed by 10. Anyways.So second post. I figured the previous one was wayyy too long and I see you people drowning already. So ya. Woke up at 10 and watch Saturday Disney. GOD I love disney :3 Then wanted to go to Royal Brunei to get the credit card thingy sorted out or else I wouldn't be able to board the plane next Friday. But there was no parking space, you know, at the city. After that me and my mom went to Garden City to look for dresses! Yes. dresses! for my cousins wedding. There were lots of gorgeous dresses that suited me and stuff. But I reckon I'm dressing up too much for a wedding in KK. But my mom reckons that people in KK dresses up waaaaaay more compare to Brisbane :S I dunno. ISH. maybe I'll just wear back the same dress I wore for last year's teachers day performance which I got in 2008 from VANCOUVER i miss that place~Tried 8 dresses and got 1. which wasnt even a cocktail dress what so ever. It was a sun dress. pretty as. The shoe shop outside of the library was closing down so there was like mega sales!! This gladiator high heeled shoes were only 10 dollars! But I didn't get them. Was thinking of getting a pair of gladiator sandals for boom but dunno if she will like it a not. and shereen. I got her loads of stuff. At least, in my mind :P hahas.
then piano, then Aldi. here's a theory:" If you see thin people buying loads of chocolate from ALDI. Note: It means that they are going back to their hometown and are buying for family and friends :) hahas. good theory eh? after that we went to singapore malaysia for dinner. i know! I'm going in less than a week and i'm going to get rip off food? shame on you kim. Came home and was so tired and felt restless. That's why mom ended up going to riverfire by herself, just like how she did for buddhafest, which made me feel very guilty :S

[This pair of shoes cost 10dollars only! Was gonna buy it for boom but she doesn't like it..should ask shereen :)]

 ok bye.